Paper Conversations,

notepadd @ 2009-12-24T00:53:00

2009-12-23T16:53:59Z

I wish Sydney wasn't so far away, so that I can ask my friends to visit me and show them all the cool places there: Weekend markets, my favourite thrift store at Waverley, The Rocks, Darling Harbour, cool cafes at random places, Newtown, Bondi. The longer I stay, the more I don't feel like going back.
Aiya.

Christmas doesn't feel like Christmas at all. I want to watch Love Actually again. Feels more Christmas-y when I do.

She is beautiful but

2009-12-18T19:37:20Z

I was trying to remember whether I've read 1984 or Brave New World, or even both and it's annoying 'cos I get their stories mixed up. I know I've read 1984 since I have a copy of it at home, but when the hell did I read Brave New World? And then I remembered, when I got a call asking who's the author of BNW. I read it when I was in Sydney, when I just got there all fresh-faced and impressionable. I remember you asking me who's the author, of a book that you've supposedly read for school. That's when I learnt you hated reading. I remember the time at the hospital, where I tried playing Dactyl but failed miserably 'cos my hand was cold from the IV drip. I remember when I was intently playing Sound of Settling, determined to beat the high score. I did it and it lasted for about 5 days before you set a score so high I can't beat. I remember that Thursday afternoon at Coogee; Marley and Me.

Do you remember?

love

2009-12-14T14:25:49Z

I managed to catch my kids on their last day of school and it was probably the last time I'll see them. So sad! Most of them in the morning class didn't recognise me. ): I was really very sad! At least the afternoon class did and when I ask them if they missed me they said yes hahaha. (yes I'm shameless)

I took off my glasses to take pictures with her and she was like,"why did you take off your glasses?"
"Oh, 'cos I think I look prettier without them."
"But I think you look prettier with them." (In the super cute small girl kind of voice)
I'll miss her so much!

My mom told me she asked where I was when I was away. When she saw me for the first time I loved her expression. It was like,"Oh look it's her it's her!" 'cos her eyes went wide and she was tugging at another kid's shirt while pointing at me.

This rascal is one of the few that recognised me! I forgot his name and when I finally got it he was like,"no that's not my nameee." haha he's super cute but very naughty!

I feel like baking, and just going to some Starbucks/cafe and read all day.

Cognito Ergo Sum

2009-12-12T16:05:09Z

When it all ends, you always find yourself coming back to where you started."
I really like this, Nad.

Being back home's been good, despite the terrible weather and how it aggravates my nose. Love the places and faces; so different yet so familiar. I should really bring out my camera more often, and actually take pictures! And I've been listening to the Glee soundtrack on repeat. The songs reminds me of Sitt! ♥

People are flying away for holidays, but there are others that are coming back for winter break. Can't wait till everyone's around!

A History of Love

2009-12-02T14:44:59Z

"Are you the happiest and the saddest right now that you've ever been?"
"Of course I am."
"Why?"
"Because nothing makes me happier and nothing makes me sadder than you."

notepadd @ 2009-11-28T02:18:00

2009-11-27T18:18:53Z

Stupid, stupid, stupid DB.
Today shall be the last time I do silly/crazy things such as ______.

notepadd @ 2009-11-26T01:41:00

2009-11-25T17:41:20Z

Note to self: have to stop writing stupid posts.

list #1

2009-11-24T19:21:15Z

I need to:
1) Stop sleeping at 3am. Or 4am. Or 5am.
2) START READING.
3) Stop being lazy and get my ass outside to run.

notepadd @ 2009-11-15T19:53:00

2009-11-15T11:53:48Z

You have no idea how much I love you, really.

List of books to read is all drawn up and hopefully I can complete it. 20 books in 3 months is quite comfortable (I think). Pretty busy week ahead and can't wait to see all my favourite people.

Random pictures(because I feel like uploading them):

That stupid bird snapped on my fingers while trying to get the food.

"I shall call you squishy and you shall be mine."
I love this duck. Cutest duck everrr.

Okay I'm lazy to upload more. And oh yes.
I'M BACK.

When your heart gets broken you start to see the cracks in everything

2009-11-11T07:37:04Z

Bringing Cynicism to the next level. God, what have I become? You can say all you want my dear, and I'll never believe you.

Back to Singapore so so soon I might not be able to sleep. Meet ups people! And I'll be seeing my kids too, reckon they may be the only thing that will keep me sane. I ~~should~~ need to come up with a list of things-to-do while back so my brain won't rot away.

Room is still in a mess. Sigh.

Persuasion

2009-11-09T14:35:26Z

"I can listen no longer in silence. I must speak to you by such means
as are within my reach. You pierce my soul. I am half agony, half
hope. Tell me not that I am too late, that such precious feelings are
gone for ever. I offer myself to you again with a heart even more your
own than when you almost broke it, eight years and a half ago. Dare
not say that man forgets sooner than woman, that his love has an
earlier death. I have loved none but you. Unjust I may have been,
weak and resentful I have been, but never inconstant. You alone have
brought me to Bath. For you alone, I think and plan. Have you not
seen this? Can you fail to have understood my wishes? I had not
waited even these ten days, could I have read your feelings, as I think
you must have penetrated mine. I can hardly write. I am every instant
hearing something which overpowers me. You sink your voice, but I can
distinguish the tones of that voice when they would be lost on others.
Too good, too excellent creature! You do us justice, indeed. You do
believe that there is true attachment and constancy among men. Believe
it to be most fervent, most undeviating, in F. W.

"I must go, uncertain of my fate; but I shall return hither, or follow
your party, as soon as possible. A word, a look, will be enough to
decide whether I enter your father's house this evening or never."

I read the book just for that part; actually I stopped after that part and I suppose I should just finish it... or not.

notepadd @ 2009-11-05T00:35:00

2009-11-04T13:39:57Z

We both know it's not the same anymore.

notepadd @ 2009-11-03T20:53:00

2009-11-03T10:04:43Z

Biology in 2 days, Psychology in 5. I'm so fucked.

There's just so much going on, so much rubbish always happening to me. I'm so tired having to keep up with it. All these... things. Why do I always get the difficult/trouble ones.

notepadd @ 2009-11-03T12:24:00

2009-11-03T01:31:19Z

Sooner or later this will fall apart
It takes more than science to save a failing heart
I wanted to keep you and hide you from the sun
but no one could reach you

You say I'm a black hole
Sigularity
My own supernova
A blazing blind catastrophe
And for once I was a star
A long time before that
Somebody's sun

But enough of these pointless noises
Enough of just counting down
This is not a test
If love is not the answer
then maybe I misunderstood Oh the question
Oh there must be someway out of this

We stand in a circle

hand in hand in hand
There's talk of a comet
Over moon and land
The sand has run out of the glass
We stand in a circle
We stand in a line

But enough of these pointless noises
Enough of just counting down
This is not a test
So hope was not but answer then could you please repeat the question Oh the question
There must be someway
I want so
There's always someway

Well enough of these final nothings
There's no time to reconsider
So love was not the answer then maybe I misunderstood the question
Because it must be somewhere
I want it somewhere
There's always someway

Now let me show you the shape of my heart

2009-10-28T14:24:01Z

One and half days to first paper oh my god.
Study break has been quite fun/slightly productive. Meet up at 10am, brain usually dies by 4pm and we end up singing Backstreet Boys songs while typing the lyrics to each other though we're just across the table OR playing daidi for 2 hours and listening to someone trying to learn Singlish (seriously, why? haha). I get home and somehow am too tired to study, but still sleep at 2am. How terrible. Lather, Rinse, Repeat.

Home in 2 and half weeks. Goodbye to going home whenever I please, even at 4am or not going home at all; going out when I want to; sleeping at 5am; not eating when I don't feel like; eating whatever I want, without getting screamed at by The Parents. But, home is home. Cheap food & familiar places and faces.
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We both know this is a sinking ship. Don't know why I'm still on it, even though I said I would get off so long ago. So much have been said, so much time has passed and we're still at the same place as 3 months ago. sigh.

"Love me when I least deserve it, because that's when I really need it."

2009-10-22T14:36:20Z

- Swedish proverb

...and I don't know, I think it's always nice to know that someone loves you and tells you so.
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He'll probably still not message me, never admit (even grudgingly) that cats are cute but instead hate them, not be interested when I talk about my psych lectures or just, let me have my way sometimes. But, I still love him.

notepadd @ 2009-10-19T20:51:00

2009-10-19T09:59:09Z

I'm on to you.

notepadd @ 2009-10-19T10:50:00

2009-10-18T23:53:32Z

1) I miss IB. It's been a year since school officially ended, but it feels so much longer than that.

2) Exams in less than 2 weeks. #@&$?!

3) I'll be home in less than a month.

4) I have to go for lecture now.

5) It's the last week of school!

You know you are spending too much time studying plants when...

2009-10-17T09:34:11Z

you start recalling facts about tubers and storage roots while cooking dinner.

notepadd @ 2009-10-17T01:07:00

2009-10-16T14:19:21Z

I love Google Chrome, especially my pretty pretty one. Sorry Firefox, you're just too slow.

Doing Stats homework is a bitch because I have to manually calculate out the chi-sq test statistic since I can't use my GDC during exams! Rawr. But I've also forgotten how to use it. ><

Anywayy, 3 weeks till it's Home Sweet Home! Feel like going shopping after exams are overrr. I'm eyeing my box full of coins.. maybe it's enough to buy my Sass&Bide jeans? I reckon it can pay about half! hehehe. The Commonwealth branch at Randwick has this fantastic device where you can deposit coins, and you can get the amount in notes at the teller.

I just realised that end of this semester means I've finished one year of uni. That's quite a strange feeling.

no wise word's gonna stop the bleeding

2009-10-14T12:58:07Z

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise word's gonna stop the bleeding
'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks no it don't break even

And, what am I gonna to do when the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even)

Oh you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame
Now I'm trying make sense of what little remains
'Cause you left me with no love, no love to my name

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break, no it don't break even

one month, baby

2009-10-12T14:19:13Z

I wanted to talk about my experiences in an MRI machine but I'm too lazy. But it was quite cool. This week is the second last week of school! This semester has been damn bloody slow grrr. Last semester felt a lot shorter. First paper starts in about 2 and half weeks and ends 2 weeks later (I think). Means I'm going home sooooon. I'll be going back to the kindergarten this year.. Hope the kids will be just as cute!

Most Awesome

2009-10-09T02:46:12Z

It's not the storm before the calm

2009-10-04T01:47:37Z

This is the deep and dying breath of
This love that we've been working on;

Don't you think we ought to know by now
don't you think we should have learned somehow

notepadd @ 2009-09-28T20:26:00

2009-09-28T10:37:23Z

That my friends, is the famous Bondi Beach. Sorry for the lousy-ish quality of the pictures. It was getting late and was scared of getting mugged/walking in the dark.

Where I started from isn't even on that map! So tired now. So glad I managed to catch 400 from the interchange without waiting. Time to start studying for Bio. OH I dissected a toad last week and have half a mind to post those pictures up on facebook muhahaha. Rat tomorrow!